My awesome Mom and Sister have planned a "pre-birthday" celebration for me tonight! I am so excited and can't wait for 6:00pm. My actual birthday is monday, Oct 5th.
Evening plans are a girl's only dinner and movie. They've invited my closest and best friends and family to celebrate my turning 30. Yes, I did say 30! I can't believe the time has arrived for me to graduate to my 30's.
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I have mixed emotions about turning 30.
Part of me is excited because I feel like the older I get, the more confident I become in who I am. I feel confident in who I have become and where I am going in life. I feel confident in my looks. While I acknowledge that I am not a super model, I also realize that even supermodels aren't really even supermodels. I've started viewing beauty in different aspects other than looks. Beauty is so much more than that. For me, it's strength, god'grace, honest people and integrity. I have also noticed that my emotions have settled down a little bit. I don't take things so personal and I've noticed that I can handle rejection a little better. I appreciate and love my kids more and more every day. I am thankful for the way my parents raised me and how they've supported me through many good and bad decisions, yet still loved me the same. I am thankful, that while my marriage has been a journey, that James has hung in there with me.
The not so happy part of me is thinking "Oh man, I'm not in my twenties anymore. It was always so nice to say, " I'm twenty----something." I have also heard things like: your metabolism slows down one you hit 30 (which in my case was 20!)
It's ok though. I am entering a new phase of my adulthood and I will embrace it! Besides, I don't really have an option, it's coming for me ready or not! ;-)
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